GLEE :D

i am loving glee. they all have such wonderful voices. it's amazing.

this is the full song, by the cast of glee.

center stage? err.

note the label before you start reading ;) hehe

public speaking, or speaking in public, to a public, to a crowd, be it large or small, familiar or strangers .. i thought i could do it, but as it turns out, like it always does .. i couldn't. why? oh, why? i could never understand.

i don't think it's the lack of confidence. i think i've got enough of them, enough for me to get up in front of those people and to actually speak while facing them. i never look into their eyes though.

i guess, in the end, it all comes back to me. i couldn't handle it when the limelight's on me. i mean, i like the attention. i do enjoy it, yeah. but not too much, not when all of it is focused on me. it gives me pressure, the pressure to impress, to earn approval. and i just don't work well under pressure. i really don't. i'm that laid back of a person.

some people needed the pressure to push them to work harder, to get things done. i'm not one of those people. pressure just panics me. i guess, i'm pretty optimistic. once i've calmed myself and see the bright side, then only, i could get started on the things i should do, one by one. like what happened last week ;P hehe. i was overloaded with work. although, overloaded might be a strong word. i just had a little too much to do with so little time. fortunately, everything was done just in time (^^)

but i see you

i'm sitting across from you
i'm dreaming of the things i'd do
i don't speak, you don't know me at all
for fear of what you might do
i say nothing but stare at you
and i'm dreaming i'm tripping over you

a song by mika. it's such a beautiful song. i caught it from gossip girl. i've become so addicted to the series that i fell in love with their tracklists as well. my favourite, one of it ..

every question, every answer too
ever constant, ever changing you

i love that song! it was perfect for the perfect happy ending, where chuck finally says the L word back to blair. awwh. who knew chuck could be such a sweetheart. he would do absolutely anything and everything for blair just so she's happy. the things he had done for blair without her even knowing his good deeds, like her prom. awwh. i love chuck bass.

love, love, love
love oh love, love
love, love, love oh

seasons of love by shiny toy guns ;)

it's almost over though :( sobsobs.

next? vampire diaries, glee, how i met your mother season 5.

i used to be so good at math..

i am so pissed. as it turns out, i'm not the only one. one of my classmates even made it obvious, which i kinda salute her for that. it's about time someone made it clear. someone needs to tell him off. okay, maybe that's a bit rude. but still. a message needs to be delivered.

here's the story.

he writes on the board. he took his time in doing so. then, when he's done, he asked whether we understand or not. simple, yeah? he only writes on the board because there's something wrong with the projector or something. otherwise, he would use a slideshow. when we don't understand, when we said no, or looked blur, to his question, he would be surprised, like his magic doesn't work. apparently, by showing us the complete solution without even as much as a guidethrough, he thought, we would magically understand, like voila.

urgh. i am going out of mind. i am like really mad. this course should be easy, but because of a misleading (i found out from them who had done some research on the net), or none-leading-at-all, i just might fail! stupid. stupid. stupid!

yesterday was the same case, but i just waved it off, but i can't keep it in any longer, or i just might go crazy. i don't have the guts cause otherwise, i'd join my classmate and make a rally. the thing is, i'm not that bad of a girl (^^)v hehe.

question: could a math formula differ/change? i mean, it's math. it's a simple fact. 1 + 1 = 2. there's no any other answer. so how could the formula to calculate standard deviation different from the last time i learned in high school??

another thing, i told him of a question that i can't do. in my personal view, if you're really good, which you should be when you're the one who's teaching, you should have the answer to everything, or at least know where to begin. in his case, he continued writing his notes on the board. he frigging ignored my question! although, in his defense, he did said he'd get right back to it. i didn't hear him, cause his voice was frigging low, and he didn't look up.

it is realized ... that we've, or most of us, have set our bars high. an A- would be as low as we would go ;) i hope so.

"education is sexy"

says izni ;) haha

thanks to the assignment given by my english lecturer, i've learned some interesting facts :) hehe.

just to share a few:

exercises don't exactly help you in losing weight. in fact, you might gain more that you lose em'. exercises stimulate hunger. you just have to eat right, but i guess, exercises are necessary to tone our muscle, so that we won't have flabby skin. by eat right, i don't mean going on a healthy diet. you can eat anything and everything. the most important thing is moderation. you should only eat when you're hungry, and not eat till you're full (islam says so too, about the latter). i've learned a few things to control our eating, like eat slowly, take a few deep breaths before and in between bites. our brain send the signal that we're full a little too late, which is why we should eat slowly and in small bites so that we won't consume so much more than we should.

although, my problem is, i know i should stop. i have voices in my head telling me to stop or to not to. but then, the food would go to waste.

i wanna try though. but it only works in long-term. a few ocassional indulgence is okay, i guess ;P hehehe see? i can't help it.

another trivia: running releases endorphine, the feel good hormone if i'm not mistaken :) a post workout sense of euphoria, which is the reason some runners came back for more, and claimed to be "addicted". which reminds me of alisa :)

for your entertainment

i finally took the time to study tonight.

although, while adib was off for dinner, i was left alone (i didn't have dinner cause i ate too much already for the day and i was still full), so i decided to go to najua's. it was a horrible mistake. it was so frigging loud there. no ofence though. i mean, as much as i love the fun stress-free atmosphere, i really can't stand it when i'm trying to focus and concentrate. i can't even hear my own thoughts. i could've sworn that my head blew up. i was going out of my mind. i couldn't really study alone, cause then i'd have to get up to go asking someone when i've got problems.

adib came back and i got to my room, with just the two of us. ah, finally. peace and serenity. one where i could think.

damn. i hope my hearing's won't be getting bad. i listened to my iPod going to sleep, cause i'm afraid of hearing something else that might disturb my sleep and raise my heartbeat. i heard it before and i'm not hearing it again just to confirm my wild imaginations. secondly, i put on my earphones and go as loud as it can sound when i watch gossip girl on my laptop. since there's no subtitle, it's hard to catch what they're saying sometimes. then, the time spent at najua's, or more like sitting next to najua :P haha. her high pitch cartoonish voice shouting, screaming and yelling could have really tore my eardrums out! like oh my friggin gosh. haha. but i still love her. she really knows how to make me laugh. she's an entertainment :D hehe.

BEAT 17

my public speaking class went well. i like it. i like the lecturer. it was so much better than the last time. it was worth taking up my saturday morning, i guess :) he's cool.

later in the evening, i went jogging by the beach :) with my lil brother and dad. dad's been eager to exercise to kick up our stamina to climb mt. kinabalu this june, and i just need to exercise for i lack of it and also, i need to lose weight (^^)v

jogging by the beach was so much better than jogging on the treadmill. you've got a wonderful view, the wind and the most beautiful song playing on repeat, the sound of nature. the sound of waves crashing washed all of my thoughts away. it felt nice.

it's something that i've always had in mind to do.