cut off

sometimes, i feel like i have no friends..

i caught myself thinking as i stare pensively out the window.

okay, ignore my vulnerability. i don't like it when i'm feeling all insecure and vulnerable. and that somehow, made me strong.

i thought of tweeting it, but as i said, i don't really like to show off feeling weak and emo.

but now, i just wanna take the time for once and be honest.

i feel like i've been cut off. cut out. deleted. rejected. but i think i can guess why so.

friendship was just never enough.

i keep a close-knitted group of friends that i'm fond of. so yeah, it's sad when i lose any of them. life was much more brighter, interesting, happier with them around. the fact that we're not as close is heart-wrenching. that i can't just walk up and talk and laugh.. like everybody else. i feel forever alone (in reference to tumblr)

i think there was a comment left on my blog saying that i lead a happy life ? well, i guess it's because i tend not to dwell on the negatives. though, i do feel it, not as often, even on the most trivial matter. i've always said that life is like a roller-coaster and it couldn't be any truer. your happy ending depends on where you stop the story, so just take the sadness as a climax before you get to your happy ending.